Happy 1st Birthday Kai!

1/24/2019

One whole year. I’m not sure how, but we’re here. I’m so in love with this last year because of you. I’ve never loved someone so deeply in my whole life.

The moment you came out of me 365 days ago my whole world changed. They placed you on my chest and your cries were the greatest song I’ve ever heard. I was so scared of the journey ahead but you grabbed my finger and said “let’s go mama.”

I’ve sustained you for a whole year. That first month was so hard. I was so tired and didn’t know what I was doing. But then we were on the verge of giving up our breastfeeding journey and in your own way you told me no and that you wanted me. Only me. It was the biggest turning point in my motherhood journey. Even at 1 month old, you showed me how much you loved ME. From that point, nursing you began to be the biggest honor of my life.

One random morning you were swinging and we were singing Disney songs. I sang the words “when you meet the one you’ve been waiting for and he’s everything that you want and more. You look at him and you finally start to live for someone else” and I looked at you and you were smiling at me. My heart grew by the millions. Another turning point in motherhood for me. You became my best friend.

Your laugh is the greatest thing my ears have ever heard. Your smile is the greatest thing my eyes have ever seen. Your scent is the greatest thing my nose has ever smelled. Your love pats are the greatest thing to have touched me. Your love is the greatest thing my heart has ever felt.

You quite literally complete my life. I look at you a million times a day and can’t believe I have this life. I marvel and wonder how you are mine and I am yours.

I love you, Kai. Happy 1st Birthday my handsome darling boy. & cheers to many more snuggles and adventures ?